Monday, June 16, 2008

I saw him! I saw him!

This is a picture off of the Texas Cadet website. They are supposed to be providing day by day summaries of the encampment (heck, they're ONLY three days late!) Anyway, I see this picture today and there is Ryan! See the white pillar in the back middle of the picture? He is the kid to the left of it with his hand up by his mouth (undoubtedly chewing on his pen cap!) I know what you're thinking...all those kids look the same with their military haircuts and identical BDU's...but trust me, a mother KNOWS!
I have been in constant prayer all day for Ryan. He is having such a hard time. I guess it's all my fault. He has never been away from us and the time we finally do send him away, it's to a military camp with people yelling at him one inch from his face! I feel like I've just thrown him into the fire. I'm a bad mother....I'll take the blame (and the cost) for the eventual therapy he'll be going to.
I want to call so bad, yet I am so scared! I want to hear that he's had a total turn around and is now participating and having a great time, but I know that's not the case. I feel like I can feel his hurt and it's killing me that I can't comfort him. At least he's not alone in feeling so homesick. The second lieutenant said that EVERY kid there has cried at least once since they've been there (yeah, like THAT'S supposed to make me feel better?)
Doug is out on a photo shoot on Matagorda beach, otherwise I'd make him call! I just want to hear his voice again and know that he has the strength to make it through this week. Please say a prayer for him....please.

2 comments:

Therese said...

many prayers for both you and Ryan.

Nine (+) Texans and friends... said...

I've been looking for him too! :-)
Glad you got a glimpse.
He'll be OK. really.
If I had been on the ball I would have told the kids from our squadron (two of which are staff) to look out for him, but as usual I am NOT thinking ahead.